Well, i've been through a lot lately, sadly i was only able to post my two recent ones, i'm missing a few of the ones i wrote before 'cause i don't have my old poem book, and i was going to enter them 'cause they are part of what makes me... well, me. because that is what the past does, it makes you into who you are, or at least helps make you who you are. i got some good advice from my friend Tina, and it's really helping , i'm glad i know the friends i do and can't live without them, quite literally, i wouldn't trade them for the world and i love them to no end, they have helped me through everything and well, even though the full story is sometimes unknown, they truly know how to be a really good friend. i am really sorry i haven't written a journal since August 13th, of 2008... it's been a tough time and well, i've been stressed a lot, but, i'll be 17 on Friday, so that's a plus. Oh, and another plus is that it is on Friday the 13th this year!!! YAY!!! you know, you never know who your friends truly are until you really need them, and that's when they'll show your true colors. and i have to say all of my friends make the most beautiful painting in the world with those true colors that they have shown. i commend them for being so strong, especially my friend Tina, and others that are quite close. they are sooo amazing, i just hope i don't lose anyone because that would just hurt to no end. and i love philosophy, especially since i learned this one quote in the class last year : "Momento Mori". it means "Live life now because you're going to die" lol, it makes me laugh, and it's sooo true. I LOVE IT !!! i also haven't hung out with a lot of my friends, which sucks, so, i'm going to try and fix that and hopefully make things better in my life, maybe have less drama in it, lol, yeah right! it's high school, what am i talking about huh? anyways, anyone that has my cell number, text me, i have unlimited texting to all networks, and i love to hear from my friends ... hopefully all my friends can hang out soon, maybe at a party type deal for my birthday, that would be amazing!!! i know it's weird, i don't really like large crowds, but when it's with my friends, idk, i just mostly love it and i know i've been rambling but i'm distracting myself from pain and homework, so, yeah that's always fun to do, hehe i hope to get my license soon, and also hope to get my left set lip piercing soon too, and maybe my car fixed, that'd be awesome!!! WOOT WOOT WOOT ! ! ! i love y'all for standing by me, and i hope you know i'll always be here for y'all too talk to you all soon